On this first day of

Staying positive.

Today is the first day of August 2020 and I am coming to realize how the steam to keep moving forward with my Artwork is completely on me. This is something in ways I have known all along but I guess didn't consider how among the ebb and tide of life: even at home, one can get lost and some-how phased from one's passions. There comes the nitty gritty of making these possibilities a reality. Then doing what I can when I can and trying to have control over what I think is anxiety. Even learning about more opportunities is a two edged sword. As I find another way to market my work I find a list of cons as listed by another artist's experience.There is going to be a nitty gritty side and cons regardless of which type of avenue I chose. I know that and need to pony up and deal with some of it already. The day to day grind may be unavoidable but I do believe we can chose the backdrop of what that grind is. And if this grind at times stirs and irks me to point of outbursts or inability then that backdrop doesn't fit. The sooner that is realized and changed, the better. So this is me really choosing Art in any and every capacity whenever I can. Because it is something that always makes sense to me.

As for the Art making, I am still working on a commission for a friend. To me it resembles a family crest, so even with it's three to four main elements it has a lot going on. I want the piece to be as nice as possible for where I am right now. Any artist can understand. Though it seems to be these small factors of stroke width that is bothering me most. I am really attempting to be a fine line kinda and these semi- thick marks are overtaking the work. As for the friend, I will not even send a picture of the piece in progress until I get this under control. It's fine, I Promise. As dumb and possibly obvious as it sounds I may just need a new paint brush, though this was me, not trying to blame the tools.