Bartender, another

Well, I'm going to stay up front with my audience and say that this week was complete shit. There was an absolute atrocity in my extended family, of which healing may take eons. This occurrence has made it difficult to focus on the public pursuit of my work although I have spent some decent time organizing and developing a work for an ongoing collection. That and my Redbubble shop is a forever pursuit.

I don't know about others pursuing their passion but one thing on my mind is the trade off. What I mean is the likeliness that you are working a day job and then making your creation hard on the side. So how often do you go for the guaranteed paycheck? Or is you making the life you always dreamed of worth the shift cut? Personally I have become somewhat insubordinate at day jobs, in ways I am mad at myself that my life hasn't changed more considerably that this daytime mess still looks as it does.

Tedium is a part of any job. Even me setting up merch on Redbubble takes time and is annoying to readjust, so lets just acknowledge that now, I am not unrealistic about an Art filled life. Nothing is always exciting but I would MUCH rather be making my own hours and bank than taking it from someone else. Nowadays the weekends and evenings are my main jam. And I can feel it that if I keep pushing, keep finding avenues and telling my self-doubt to shove it, then something real will be made from these many hours of ass sitting and small opportunity prospects. Well, that's all for this week folks.